langit tidak selalunya cerah | the sky is not always clear

Assalamualaikum, Bismillahirahmanirahim...

1. Hello my blog readers (if any...hihi)...

2. It been a very2 long time that I've not updating my blog.Just change the appearance of it. That's all...

3. Ok. For a fresh start, I'll talk a bit about things that circle around my head...unfortunately its nothing.

4. One thing that I'm very sure that they're few people that I miss so much :

• Mak, Bapak and the rest of my family;
• Zainorhana and also her family;
• Late Nurul Aleeya Zara, my lovely little angel;
  
• Some of my friends;
• Myself;

5. Mak, bapak.. your son always wanna be with you..near to you..make both of you happy..kiss you..hug you..wanna love from both of you..wanna blessing from you..being love by both of you same as being love by Allah..insya'Allah...for the rest of my family..hope all of you are doing well..please ensure that our heart will stay together forever..we've got no one else other that "mak", "bapak" and "us". Need to stick together no matter what...please..i'm begging from you guys..


6. My dinda Zainorhana...kanda's love always be with you..it is our destiny to be together..to seek Allah's love...to get our parents' blessing..i'm very happy that me and your family able to get along very well..i'm glad and happy that i'll be part of the great family.loving you sayang is something that i'll do each and every day without fail..having you in my life is one of the greatest thing ever happen to me...hoping for Allah's "redha" and "berkat"..so, our love will be last forever..amin...




7. Late Nurul Aleeya Zara, each and every time pak lang think of you my dear..pak lang can't stop my eyes to get wet..today is Friday...same day when Allah's take you back "home"..live near to HIM..still fresh in my mind..on this same day..1st January 2010, you open the door for me that morning sayang..but who knows Allah's plan..you went to meet HIM on the same day..I'm too happy that morning..I wanted to share it with you..but the fate has been writen..its something that no human can do anything bout it.I'll cry when i'm alone sayang...but pak lang need to be strong for "atuk".."uwan"..and everyone...but Zara, pak lang just a normal human being..pak lang cant forget when doctor told me that you cant be save..and I never see you again...I looked at you sayang..you're so calm and peace..pak lang kiss and hug you sayang...u're so cold..i hope u heard what that i've been said to you on the day you leaving us..please..pray for us..so that when my turn come..i wanna to meet you again sayang..pak lang really miss you so much...sorry i cant continue writing bout you my dear..i cant stop crying...


8. My friends...I may a bit busy at this moment..but cant wait to meet you all..hehe..nothing much to say...need to meet you guys first..haha..

9. Myself...where are you..? where have you been..? which one is the real me..? identity conflict..need to ensure which is the real me.. before I move to the next level.. Allah, your guidance is needed... you humble servant is begging for your help...put me back on the right path..the path that lead me to YOU..begging for your mercy and love...begging for your kindness and blessing...i'm nothing without YOU..i'm useless without YOU..i'm not me when far from YOU..my empty heart need to be fill with a lot of Allah's Nur..amin...